Thursday: cant use the comp, Ope keep on monopolizing the comp, and plus, I had a little argument with her.

Friday: Went to Sumber Waras hospital, someone just passed away. Then went to Roy's house and had a little chit chat with Chandra. He's so funny, we talked about his first aquintence with Lia.
Then went to campus, wishing Indri happy birthday!! and met Jedi. He is so stunning. He always look good. I'm so proud with him.. but, when he drove me to church with Wina, I got all sick. My stomache went crazy, and every time I tried to speak, felt like wanna throw up!! And Jedi misunderstood it. He sent me this 'u gotta work on ur attitude' sms. He got so upset with me, I felt so terrible [btw, after i reached annex's bathroom, I finnally Jackpotted!!]... so I called him, and apologized. But I still cant take it out of my head, how upset I've made him that day. I just got this thought that he so angry, and just had enough, and wanna leave me. I keep on thinking about it.
After church, I got black outs at the parking lot.. and faint for like 20min. After I felt good enough, I went home, but on the way, I decided to stay at a Friend's place. She took me to a small clinic, just to make sure that I'm ok.
Notified Dimas 'bout it, and seems like he did called Jedi, coz the next 10min, he called me. I felt so weak, even though I went over joyed coz he called.

Today, Saturday:@home!! Sleep all day! My condition is getting worse. Feels like freezing, but my body temp is so hot. Felt dizzy& everytime i tried to get up, my visions began to blur... gotta hold on to the walls if I wanna make my way. I really need Jedi at this moment. But he just seems so far away... [crying] I cant stop thinking about him today. Every scene from the past when we're still together just blazing out one by one. And each time it ended, I cried ...
I finally called him, and he said thanks that I give him a ring. I felt needed :') Pretty stupid huh?! Maybe in one "someday", everybody gonna felt the same way.